Musings

Living in a tower, up in the air

Reaching though high, wasn’t a barrier

Thinking if I was lost, or all alone

Time lost sitting, no one was home

No visitors at all, yet to know

The bite of an apple, my only hope

Waiting to hear, the sound of footsteps,

The only company, I’ve ever known

Laughter and Tears, though most is wept

Spark has dimmed, to an empty nest

Dreams of being carried away, up in the air

To a land far far away, an unknown lair

Creatures with stories, oh so fascinating

Mind free and amazed, should I be awakening?

Is this reality, or am I lost in a dream?

Up in the tower, and live in a daydream?

Memories of a thousand, so lovely things

All for granted, for hope of a ring

To live a life, adorned with ghosts

My only salvation, for I knew I was lost.

 

 

4:42 am

I’m not a coward. Unlike cowards, I don’t runaway. I’m someone who’s afraid of not being able to know what’s out there. I stick to what I find unless I find a better alternative. But then again, people change. They don’t always find alternatives and worse, the fear escalates. Its not what I can’t do, its what I’ve already done; what I don’t want to chicken out from. Even though I am constantly reminded of the aftershocks, not only now, but since I was able to write and read, I’ve somehow made them fade away, until the next, and the next time. But when everything becomes so clear, no matter how many spells you cast and still the thoughts don’t vanish, you start to suffocate. You start feeling queasy, irritated; become a nuisance to yourself to the point of plainly pulling your own hair out. To the point where you have no idea what you are doing.

to or not?

To break free of Hostility

Qualms of conscience remaining

Alternatives in a quandary

Fleeing only to a ploy

Adolescence, a fools paradise

Grasped on to something scarce

Nonsensical though tolerant

Buzz gently gone astray

Queries and repetitions irritate

Devotion prerequisites effort

Happiness often overheard

Confinement or Silence to the end?

Facebook’s New Timeline Not Updating?

I haven’t heard this from many though I’ve noticed that Facebook doesn’t work on the first day of each month. That is if you have got the new timeline. Since my last post on October, None of my posts have appeared on my timeline. As my status updates are usually the ones I tweet, at first I assumed my twitter somehow got de-authorized, but this continued when I authorized it as well. I can see my posts through my newsfeed, and even get notification and comment on them as well. Also friends who haven’t updated their Facebook to the new timeline can see my profile with all my updates from their Facebook.

I’ve even googled about this, but so far, I don’t think this problem has been often recognized, thus my assumption that Facebook’s new timeline has trouble on the first day of the month. Maybe due to the Time Difference with US? Or there’s a bug? Meh.

 

Update: When I type it manually, I can see the posts. But still the timeline bar hasn’t been updated.  http://www.facebook.com/iecco/timeline/2011/11 (for those of you with timeline)

When I finally want to do something, the universe has its funny way of saying No.

Why can’t there be Pool Memberships? Or a Gym with a Pool? There aren’t any to my knowledge near by where I live in Malaysia. Ofcourse its usual that each condo has its own Swimming Pool but mine doesn’t. And unlucky for me, I can’t afford to just pack up and move to another condo just like that. And its not easy to ask friends in nearby condos to go visit them just to go to the swimming pool? It’s a waste of their time too!

For those of you who reads my blog entries, in addition to many of my illnesses, I’ve also got a cracked up knee cap and a brittle backbone due to which not one but almost all the doctors I consulted within the past 3 years asked me to refrain from any physical activity, and specially treadmills, gyms, aerobics, etc. My only option was to go swimming.

Currently I’m not allowed to swim for the next 3 months with my lasik surgery, but after that, another year of getting fatter? Damn.  I’ve already stayed 2years with no physical activity. And I absolutely cannot diet with only veggies and starve myself from good food!

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